Driving home from work one night about a month ago listening to Delilah on the radio, feeling really sad and excited with the fact that I was going to build a life for myself. I did think how nice it would be to have someone to share it with however, it was not a requirement. Actually kind of excited with the idea I had no one to answer to, no one to think about if I wanted to move to another state, and was contemplating a big move to the state of Alaska. Looked like a fun place to go and was putting the plans in motion.
Delilah has callers calling with these love stories which usually melt my heart. This night there was a man calling, a voice full of love and emotion, catching my attention. He had been "reconnected" to a woman from his past, some thirty years from his past. I was able to hear the tears in his voice. He was so exceptionally happy and his voice told the story. They had dated while very young and for some reason had gone separate ways. He really did not know why and had thought about her for all those years. One day they happen to cross paths and the rest is history. They found they still loved each other, married and have been living incredibly happy since.
My mind wondered to the man I had dated in my early twenties and as I was fifty-six now thought if we would be that lucky. Over the years I had often thought about him and wondered how he was, was he happy, did he have a family? He was a wonderful man, exceptional human being, and I had cared for him immensely, yes and still did. It was at times like that I realized how much I still did care for him and missed him. I had not allowed myself to go back to those intense feelings, EVER.
I had tried to look him up when I moved back to my home town. When I mentioned it to my mother she had heard he was shot while on duty as a police officer, and had passed away. I looked on the Internet for something, nothing. I often started to the police station he worked at but always stopped myself, partly for fear he was actually gone and partly for fear he was happily married. Not that I would have been unhappy for him but more sad for myself. All I ever wanted since we had lost touch was for him to be happy, he was well deserving.
So as I listened to the story on the radio melancholy set in and my mind wondered to thoughts of him and how nice it would be if he was alive and came back into my life. Would we, or could we pick up right where we left off? Was there a possibility he was alive and single? Believing as I do in "the other side" and being able to hear from people who have crossed over, I thought 'are you looking down on me?' Do you see me here thinking about you? Have you met up with all the others I know who crossed over?
I asked for answers from the Universe one way or the other. Sent it out! Knowing some how, some where the answers would come. Believing he had passed I expected to here verification of that. I finished my drive home and did not really think about it anymore.
I was excited about vacation, not that I was going anywhere, just for a whole week off. Catch up on things sell my eBay and Etsy try to do some writing and sorting out what to sell and what to save for the move coming.
Excited and apprehensive all at the same time. I knew in my heart it was time for a move I just liked my job a lot and hated to think about leaving it. I did look for a store on the way to transfer to. Thinking that was the way to go, just follow the transfers across the country. Sightseeing along the way, cure two pleasures at once. Keep my job which I really love and move around at the same time. Since I am basically a loner it was exciting. Just me and my cats off on the adventures of a life time. I am not sure they would think the same way though.
But then!!! The universe stepped in and gave me the answer I was not expecting in a most unexpected way.
Surprised? The biggest understatement of a lifetime. I sat and contemplated what to do next.
Not sure I wanted the answers! Not sure if I could ignore the answer!
Boy was I afraid, more like petrified to know for sure.
The Universe in it's funny way sends messages in different ways, this one came by the way of a Facebook message.
A message from his sister-in-law looking for me. Irony in that is we went to high school together and she 'wanted to reconnect', not sure I was up to that I waited almost seven days to answer her.
Partly fear, partly excited anticipation.
But in reality, in my heart, in my core I know what it was and had to laugh.
I had just made a conscious effort to move forward in my life and CRASH, BOOM, BAM! The Universe laughed and changed that.
Stay tuned for the next part......................................
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Saturday, August 17, 2013
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Surprises happen all the time.
Just when I am about to give up and think I am wrong in the things I believe in, a wonderful surprise comes along. I guess it is about the control thing. I have to remind myself all the time to give up the control and let things happen. I have read all the articles about 'going with the flow' and try, really try, but it is not as easy as it sounds.
I know deep in my heart when the time is right what is really best for me will come to me, maybe not how I think or how I imagined it to be, but it will appear.
I hope I am wide awake enough to realize it, and not so lost in what I think I want where I miss it!
I hope I am fearless enough to grab at it, and follow it, with out any conditions.
I hope I am able to catch the wing and fly off to the calling of my soul.
I did receive a couple surprises this past Sunday that there are people watching over me.
The first was when I was thinking about my mom and how a few days before she passed I came up with the idea of her sending me peacock feathers, just because they are so rare and at the time there wasn't much out there with them on. Now since she crossed over they have seemed to become very popular and are everywhere. Back to Sunday I was at work thinking how great it wold be if a peacock feather came to me and let me know I was on the right track with my plans. Odd as this sounds, a customer brought me a large picture of a peacock with very long tail feathers. I know the skeptics will all say that it was a coincidence, but if you know me I know there are no coincidences in this world! Never! Everything has a reason, and not all things are a message, but some times there is a very important message in them. We need to be able to decipher those messages.
The second thing, or sign if you will, we were experiencing a simple summer shower and I thought it was going to produce a rainbow, it did not and I looked. Later I was walking out front to check out the cart situation and low and behold there was a rainbow, unexpected. As I stood there it became brighter and brighter, almost causing a double. How exciting that was since I had just asked for it.
I wonder if they both were signs from my parents that everything is going to be ok and they are watching over me every day and when possible and for my own good they give me what I want still from the other side?
Guess I will have to wait for those answers until I get there with them.
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I know deep in my heart when the time is right what is really best for me will come to me, maybe not how I think or how I imagined it to be, but it will appear.
I hope I am wide awake enough to realize it, and not so lost in what I think I want where I miss it!
I hope I am fearless enough to grab at it, and follow it, with out any conditions.
I hope I am able to catch the wing and fly off to the calling of my soul.
I did receive a couple surprises this past Sunday that there are people watching over me.
The first was when I was thinking about my mom and how a few days before she passed I came up with the idea of her sending me peacock feathers, just because they are so rare and at the time there wasn't much out there with them on. Now since she crossed over they have seemed to become very popular and are everywhere. Back to Sunday I was at work thinking how great it wold be if a peacock feather came to me and let me know I was on the right track with my plans. Odd as this sounds, a customer brought me a large picture of a peacock with very long tail feathers. I know the skeptics will all say that it was a coincidence, but if you know me I know there are no coincidences in this world! Never! Everything has a reason, and not all things are a message, but some times there is a very important message in them. We need to be able to decipher those messages.
The second thing, or sign if you will, we were experiencing a simple summer shower and I thought it was going to produce a rainbow, it did not and I looked. Later I was walking out front to check out the cart situation and low and behold there was a rainbow, unexpected. As I stood there it became brighter and brighter, almost causing a double. How exciting that was since I had just asked for it.
I wonder if they both were signs from my parents that everything is going to be ok and they are watching over me every day and when possible and for my own good they give me what I want still from the other side?
Guess I will have to wait for those answers until I get there with them.
please visit my eBay http://myworld.ebay.com/spovio and Etsy https://www.etsy.com/shop/Suestreasures2012 sites and don't forget all are for sale.
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Seeing the signs
Today is a brand new day, a day which starts off new and beautiful full of promise and belief. Anticipation for the inspiration which I know will come. I really enjoy writing these blog posts, probably because I enjoy reading other inspirational sites and posts.
I know in my hearts of hearts I will touch one person just as I have been touched through the past few years.
I used to tell my mother, 'I am put where I am supposed to be when I am supposed to be there' and she never believed me. I know through our choices we end up certain places in situations we are hurt by, or disappointed by, or elated by. But I also know we would end up the same place eventually even if we do make all the correct choices along the path.. I myself like to go with the flow and follow the signs. The signs are all around us we just have to be aware and sensitive enough to pick them up.
Like my dimes, when I find a dime I always look at it as a message from my dad. He would always check all the pay phones, when they were around, for change in the coin return. Of course that was before cell phones and it was only a dime to make a phone call. Ancient history since no one growing up now can even relate. Every time I question whether I am headed in the correct direction I find a dime or two. Usually in the most unexpected places, like under my office chair when I am the only one there, and return to the office knowing full well it was not there when I left. Sometimes they end up on my nightstand when I know it was not there before. They are just little winks from him to tell my he still is in my corner encouraging me and guiding me. Last week my boss told me he found a couple of dimes during his day, made me feel good that my dad sees how much he has helped me in the past two years.
The unexpected scent of my mom, there is this candle which she loved the smell of and I bought three of them when she was dying. She would sit and smell them like she was trying to take enough of the smell with her. Most of the time I have them covered and cannot smell them, but every once in a while I get a really strong whiff of them and know she just walked past me. Sometimes it is as if she is sitting in the living room with me watching TV. I know she is not there in the physical form but it is impossible to convince me her spirit is not in that chair where she always sat.
The day before she passed I told her to leave me peacock feathers. What made me think of it was we used to go around the corner to see the live peacocks in the spring hoping their tails were open and beautiful. The peacock feathers where never seen before, now they are everywhere, on stationary boxes, wrapping paper, in pictures to name a few.
We must be open and alert to read the messages. Not everything is going to be a sign, however if we pay attention and not think it is all just coincidences, for there are no coincidence's in this world. Everything is orchestrated and planned by the universe down to the finest detail. We must have faith that all will and does work out to our best soul growth.
More on the planning of the universe in the next post
I know in my hearts of hearts I will touch one person just as I have been touched through the past few years.
I used to tell my mother, 'I am put where I am supposed to be when I am supposed to be there' and she never believed me. I know through our choices we end up certain places in situations we are hurt by, or disappointed by, or elated by. But I also know we would end up the same place eventually even if we do make all the correct choices along the path.. I myself like to go with the flow and follow the signs. The signs are all around us we just have to be aware and sensitive enough to pick them up.
Like my dimes, when I find a dime I always look at it as a message from my dad. He would always check all the pay phones, when they were around, for change in the coin return. Of course that was before cell phones and it was only a dime to make a phone call. Ancient history since no one growing up now can even relate. Every time I question whether I am headed in the correct direction I find a dime or two. Usually in the most unexpected places, like under my office chair when I am the only one there, and return to the office knowing full well it was not there when I left. Sometimes they end up on my nightstand when I know it was not there before. They are just little winks from him to tell my he still is in my corner encouraging me and guiding me. Last week my boss told me he found a couple of dimes during his day, made me feel good that my dad sees how much he has helped me in the past two years.
The unexpected scent of my mom, there is this candle which she loved the smell of and I bought three of them when she was dying. She would sit and smell them like she was trying to take enough of the smell with her. Most of the time I have them covered and cannot smell them, but every once in a while I get a really strong whiff of them and know she just walked past me. Sometimes it is as if she is sitting in the living room with me watching TV. I know she is not there in the physical form but it is impossible to convince me her spirit is not in that chair where she always sat.
The day before she passed I told her to leave me peacock feathers. What made me think of it was we used to go around the corner to see the live peacocks in the spring hoping their tails were open and beautiful. The peacock feathers where never seen before, now they are everywhere, on stationary boxes, wrapping paper, in pictures to name a few.
We must be open and alert to read the messages. Not everything is going to be a sign, however if we pay attention and not think it is all just coincidences, for there are no coincidence's in this world. Everything is orchestrated and planned by the universe down to the finest detail. We must have faith that all will and does work out to our best soul growth.
More on the planning of the universe in the next post
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